Its finally Thursday but I am still stuck in this institution and I still have no idea when I'm getting out of here. My therapist told me that she wants to talk with me in a few minutes about something and that has me a bit worried. I think I have somewhat of an idea what it is but I'm not sure. And its that "not sure" part that is making me worried. Ugh, I'm just stressing about everything right now. Whenever I have any down time or any time at all to think, I immediately think about something upsetting or stressful and I get depressed again. Or should I say, more depressed. But if I keep my mind constantly busy like when I taught some kids how to play blackjack earlier, I'm just fine. And then times like now when we have quiet time and my mind has space to think, I get upset. This is why I need my music, it helps me block out all this..this sadness. And if my music isn't working, it just means that I need to turn the volume up. But if that still doesn't work...I'm screwed.
~AngelCutter
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